Wow!!! is my first reaction. It feels good to be back, it feels great to rediscover the “me” within me. It feels awesome to put things behind you and see the future hour glass as half full. Above all, I am less ignorant at a time when February of 2007 has arrived.
The last year had been an eventful one, with most of things going against my wishes. As one of my pals (he is PAL) put it aptly, I had become emotionally unstable. I was not going through phases, rather periods, of what can be called mood swings. The downs were clearly clear; ups were ambiguous, and me, totally confused. I could not find reasons strong enough to justify the state of minds.
It’s always darkest before dawn. And my “Today’s Fortune’ also said
Stop searching for happiness forever, it’s around you.
The “Anonymous” had also suggested that I smell sad. It was upon me to decide whether I wanted melancholy as a way of life.
I decided against it.
So what made the turnaround or a comeback? Couple of things to start with actually…. My comeback coincided with Dada’s recall. Incidentally, we both were thrown out at the same time when we were at the helm of affairs. Then I watched Dhoom and Guru. Dhoom was stylish, while Guru reinstated my faith in dreams. I could hear the whistles in the background and my feet tapping to Dhoom Machale. I could hear the “me” within me say, "bizness". So I had Abhishek dancing on Dhoom Machale in Guru. Now that sounds interesting. I was back, the creative usual self. I dreamt Monsoons.
The last year had been an eventful one, with most of things going against my wishes. As one of my pals (he is PAL) put it aptly, I had become emotionally unstable. I was not going through phases, rather periods, of what can be called mood swings. The downs were clearly clear; ups were ambiguous, and me, totally confused. I could not find reasons strong enough to justify the state of minds.
It’s always darkest before dawn. And my “Today’s Fortune’ also said
Stop searching for happiness forever, it’s around you.
The “Anonymous” had also suggested that I smell sad. It was upon me to decide whether I wanted melancholy as a way of life.
I decided against it.
So what made the turnaround or a comeback? Couple of things to start with actually…. My comeback coincided with Dada’s recall. Incidentally, we both were thrown out at the same time when we were at the helm of affairs. Then I watched Dhoom and Guru. Dhoom was stylish, while Guru reinstated my faith in dreams. I could hear the whistles in the background and my feet tapping to Dhoom Machale. I could hear the “me” within me say, "bizness". So I had Abhishek dancing on Dhoom Machale in Guru. Now that sounds interesting. I was back, the creative usual self. I dreamt Monsoons.
What I mean by bizness is outside the scope and I put it for another day.
I had given my mind time to think without thinking of what comes next, my heart to beat to find its own rhythm without feeling for the many what ifs. I gave myself time. As a result it has become easier for me to plan without the fear of history getting repeated. I ain’t no great planner, but I do have a sense of timings. I now know when its time to move on. I am enjoying my work, which is good since lately I have been doing some R&D stuff, and some designing. I remember saying somewhere that to start with, I wanted to be a design engineer.
And so the plan is ready. I need to execute. I have been a fairly okay executioner, thanks to my work (just to clarify, I am talking of Cogni, and not placements) in the last semester. Oh what a sem it was, campus junta still recalls the horrors of the tormentor and his team. And lately, some of the praises have been bestowed on me by the sufferers. The PR sensitive have also chipped in. I am not very sure of the repercussions since it all depends on the present team, which is doing great. What amazes me are not the behind the veil attacks, but perhaps the callousness. I already mentioned that Titanic sank because we woke up late. Looks like, there are still some late risers.
So what’s next, hmm….. Let me have a look. I am rethinking to start going to gym, my tummy is growing by leaps and bounds. With the corporate India confidently realizing its globalization plans, (TOI really put it well; India sings a song, takes CORUS along) the time has come for the average to think global.
Thanks to Roorkee, I am above average.
I become a year older in February of 2007. I spotted my first gray hair a couple of days back. My zeal and determination become a year younger. February also brings my darling a month closer to tryst with destiny. Good luck Gudiya!!!
Vivek
Thanks:
PAL: it has been good talking to you, more when you are in sector V.
Anonymous: For reading, I hope to read from you sooner and for understanding.
Gudiya: For being there worrying for me to have dinner, and for studying well.
I had given my mind time to think without thinking of what comes next, my heart to beat to find its own rhythm without feeling for the many what ifs. I gave myself time. As a result it has become easier for me to plan without the fear of history getting repeated. I ain’t no great planner, but I do have a sense of timings. I now know when its time to move on. I am enjoying my work, which is good since lately I have been doing some R&D stuff, and some designing. I remember saying somewhere that to start with, I wanted to be a design engineer.
And so the plan is ready. I need to execute. I have been a fairly okay executioner, thanks to my work (just to clarify, I am talking of Cogni, and not placements) in the last semester. Oh what a sem it was, campus junta still recalls the horrors of the tormentor and his team. And lately, some of the praises have been bestowed on me by the sufferers. The PR sensitive have also chipped in. I am not very sure of the repercussions since it all depends on the present team, which is doing great. What amazes me are not the behind the veil attacks, but perhaps the callousness. I already mentioned that Titanic sank because we woke up late. Looks like, there are still some late risers.
So what’s next, hmm….. Let me have a look. I am rethinking to start going to gym, my tummy is growing by leaps and bounds. With the corporate India confidently realizing its globalization plans, (TOI really put it well; India sings a song, takes CORUS along) the time has come for the average to think global.
Thanks to Roorkee, I am above average.
I become a year older in February of 2007. I spotted my first gray hair a couple of days back. My zeal and determination become a year younger. February also brings my darling a month closer to tryst with destiny. Good luck Gudiya!!!
Vivek
Thanks:
PAL: it has been good talking to you, more when you are in sector V.
Anonymous: For reading, I hope to read from you sooner and for understanding.
Gudiya: For being there worrying for me to have dinner, and for studying well.
12 comments:
Hey! great to see the happy undercurrent in your writing, and your new outlook to life. I am glad you have come out of your despondency and sound happy and determined. I feel, setting new goals for oneself and revising them is surely the key to keep oneself busy, occupied and happy.
Your writing too did not wander off from the main gist and that is an addition which will make your writings better.
And finally, I am glad to have helped you choose your way of life, in some small, miniscule way. And, thank you so much for giving me space in your thoughts and writings. :)
@Anonymous
Hey, Hi
good to hear from you, and I hope to read from you soon. Yes its good to be busy with so many things around you, I was just not looking at them.
Can I call you with a different name if you don't mind, may be your own?
you can call me Dhriti, its not my name..but a name that I really like a lot because of its meaning. It suits well here because I figured somewhere in building your determination :)
That's a unique name, I never heard it before.
Fine Dhriti, hope to read from you soon
The answers are simple, if you look at things with a view to find the answers. Being happy is feeling like you want to jump and touch the sky, want to shout on top of your voice that you are on top of the world, when you sit and smile to yourself even if no one's around you. It's the spring in your feet, the ever vivacious tide of feelings, and you actually feel it rise and fall inside you is when you are really happy. Laughing/being in the company of friends doesn't necessarily mean you are happy, I am sure you have felt that too. Happiness is that feeling which once passes lets you look back at the incident with contentment :)
Do you really want to control your fate? Life is the unpredictable bliss that it is because of the uncertainty. If there exists a mechanism to control your fate, everyone would use it, and there would be more problems than one can imagine! Yet again, there would be this endless strife of who can control whose future, despite knowing their fates. And if after all this, whatever has to happen will be according to your fate, why know it before hand. Live each day like its your last and love everyone around you such that u are meeting them for the last time. Life was meant to be lived in a certain way, happiness is in living it as best as you can that way
Since i am not blogging yet, I thought I will write something about your questions here. I will answer the other two later. Have a class now. Bye
@Dhriti, thanks for answering... :)
By controlling my fate, I meant why everytime I am let down by myself, I feel that I could have done things in a better way. Is there a way where I can be sure of what am I doing now? How to do away with uncertainity in life?
The emotions you mentioned for happiness were experienced by me. But I guess for me, happiness would mean to be satisfied at work and still keep working.
I think I know you :)
Happy Birthday!!!!!!! have a great day ahead, and I wish you all the world's happiness in the year to come :)
you think you know me, know me you don't :)
Thanks Dhriti, I guess I was wrong when I said I know you....
Fine, I am waiting for your blogs
hmmmm, I can't write anything any more. Loads of stuff already, well you two seem to be in something very deep over here, I hope this discussion enlightens you vivek, and you stop using so much of "GRE WORDLIST" in your about me section @ orkut.
And don't thank me for anything which I did not do. You yourself are your creator/destroyer.
love
PAL
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